Friday, April 22
ok i need to blog again! i need to release all my pent up frustration and exasperation. i so cannot believe what i heard. and i dont need this right now. esp since i cried once today. this is like making it a thousand times worse. i need some me time to reflect and think. this is just too much for me to handle. i can't concentrate. why must people read so much into things. why can't they just take it at face value sometimes. things would be so much smoother and people would not be so suspiscious about each other. life is not easy esp at this age. sheesh...i still dont understand. this is so unfair. i feel exasperated? frustrated? irritated? i dunno. i have no idea what i am feeling or wad i should be feeling. all that i know is that i have to try to push this out of my head and concentrate on what is impt to me. and i defiitely know wad is impt to me. right now im concentrating on making it to the nyaa camp and mt kinabalu in one piece. i have to be stronger than this. i need more will power. no more break downs...
if u don't understand what im talking about it means you are not suppose to understand.