Tuesday, May 17
ARGH! ARGH! ARGH! ARGH! i need to yell! i need to let out my emotions! if i dun yell i feel like crying. this is a really difficult time for me. this is emotionally draining. 'dun let her worries become ur worries' how can one be so detached??!! i need to be strong for her and my frens. no one noes how this is like except the people who are know abt it! but i feel like pouring it out. i need to write in my diary! im trying hard not to cry now...but the screen's going blurry. it's difficult esp wad happened today! wad i found out. it's just difficult to accept. my brain refuses to recognise it. refuses to believe. i want to help but how? wad if things just become worse. we are treading on shaky ground here...im seriously questioning whether we are able to handle this. after all this is not only affecting me personally, but i think 2 other people as well. we must be strong for each other and for her but i don't noe if im strong enough emotionally and mentally to do it. today was HORRIBLE. now i wished i hadn't found out. cos it just made things worse for us.
[if u didn't understand; you prob weren't suppose to...only the persons involved would understand]
[persons involved: thx for everything (: we have to get through this together. and be strong for her.]