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Friday, May 13

my life fluctuates.
sometimes it rocks. other times it sucks.
but i love it.

we had NAPFA 5 item today. and i shall start with the last station which was inclined pull ups (IPU). i did 17 and for me to get A was >17. wth. and then i was the only one who tried again. and guess wad? i got 17. AGAIN. and i wasn't even tired! and then i was damn pissed and irritated and then i teared a little. but was quite ok. thx tam tam and hui wen for comforting me ((: u dun noe how much that means. like its so stupid. i missed A by 1! its like climbing a rock climbing route during a comp and then slipping off only after stepping on the first piece. but then your climb has terminated. u feel stupid, irritated and dumb cos u don't even feel tired. u feel useless. i know it's selfish of me to be sad about this when there are others who did worse but i set high expectations for myself and im disappointed cos i know i could have done it. sighs and partly cos im 13 lah. if im 14 i get A for IPU and shuttle run then i get 29 pts.

to get A for 13 yrs...
Shuttle run : >11.3secs
Situps : >30
Standing broad jump: >170cm
Sit and reach: >45cm
IPU: >17

to get A for 14 yrs...
Shuttle run : >11.5secs
Situps: >30
Standing broad jump: >177cm
Sit and reach: >47cm
IPU: >16

wad i got...
1. shuttle run: 11.47 secs (wth! missed by 0.17secs! if only i were 14 yrs...)
2. situps: 31 {haha me, yityng, tam did 31 then stopped together. then the teacher was looking at us and said 10secs more but we didn't continue. haha)
3. standing broad jump: 188cm!!! (woots damn happy! i thought i will get B lah)
4. sit and reach: 40cm (quite disappointing. thought would do better. ohwells.)
5. IPU: 17!!! (GARH! i did second time and i got 17 again! shit lar. if only i 14yrs then get A liao. at least got drastic improvement from last yr. thx to rock climbing)

so that's it larh. altogether with my 2.4 i got 27pts/30. not bad larh. but i wanted 28. sighs but im still happy. got next yr to improve even more. wahaha

then today got back physics pt! wahahah! 45/50! highest in class (: but i think mrs quah marked yityng's pt wrongly so she'll prob get 48. but nvm. then i saw my overall marks for physics and nature of science. 84.9/100! wahaha. i think together with weiting and arathi we got highest. but now dunno about yityng. i think she'll get the same. ohwells i got gpa 4.0 for science!!!! at least consolation for me for my math.

im worrying again. cos of *ABC again. i mean i think theres smth wrong and cherm thinks too but she doesn't want to tell us abt it. i think only me and cherm suspect. last night after we talked on msn and i couldn't slp well at all. too anxious for her. wad if smth is really wrong and she doesn't tell me or cherm??? my mind keep wandering and i start imagining things. maybe im over reacting but i don't want to take that chance...*ABC we'll be here for u always. if u need anything come to us. ohwells going to watch the intepreter dvd now.

`wordsofthecynical
6:44 pm

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