Saturday, September 17
today wasnt exactly a good day. but it wasnt exactly a bad one either.
went for smp this morning. and everything was kinda fine until the end. and i guess we kinda blew up at each other. not very surprising i guess, seeing the exam stress. yep i wasn't angry, more like sad. and i needed sometime to think.
i almost felt like giving up. giving up on everything. it seems as if what i've done has made no impact, and maybe it's because im not doing enough? but thanks to eileen who talked through it with me and helped me rationalize, im not giving up. my term isn't over until the last day of sch, and i'll work hard to the very end.
but if there are any issues, bring them out instead of talking behind each other's backs. it hurts much much more.
humans can be so selfish and cruel at times. and it's saddening. i guess it can't be helped, we all are strong individuals with different perceptions of this ever changing world. we all have a certain degree of self-centeredness in us. but the impt thing is that as long as we see and admit it, and make an effort to watch what we do and say, then that's a step forward. no one is perfect, and no one is faultless. it takes a really courageous person to be truly compassionate, and these people are few.
i've learnt things today. abt people and abt myslf. thanks eileen, weiting and you for helping me see my faults and helping me learn, grow and change. (:
p.s. i wanna go kayaking again! 16nies go with me to sea sports club to kayak! hmm maybe this time we go bedok one? or east coast!
` STOP the hate. EMBRACE diversity. ACCEPT others as they are.