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Sunday, February 12

back from camp; i want to write everything down before i forget anything.

we went to pasir ris park (: very nice leh! cos not so crowded (: i found out i prefer slping in a tent than in blk H. [lead camp: even if your whole shoe has to sink ankle deep into mud before u can actually step into the tent]

heh but first, the fun part of night walk [i.e. the scary part! :D]

SALLY'S DOLL! (: (:

CLOSEUP

it's all about the experience, and all the life lessons learnt. lessons that can never be taught in a classroom. it's not easy to stand there patiently teaching others esp if you know that you can do it faster and more effectively. but which is more useful?

sometimes i forget how blessed i am.
was just watching homerun- even a pair of shoes are that impt. shoes protect your feet. like mr tan said, shoes protect you from getting tapeworm larvae crawling into your skin and other dangers. but because shoes are so much more affordable, i sometimes fail to see their intrinsic worth.

i learnt how to trust myself.
when i doubt something that i've been told, i shld always turn to people who are more experienced for help.

i realised how selfish we humans can get.
from the simplest thing like thinking about how worthless you are to endangering yourself uneccessarily to complaining and pulling a long face.
it's selfish if you think you're worthless and no one cares about you cos people do. but how many times have i thought that? how many times do people think that again and again? it isn't fair to those who care. that's why it's selfish to endanger yourself uneccessarily, becuase you wld only be hurting them. we affect one another whether we like it or not. why pull a long face and make someone unhappy when you could be smiling and making them happy instead?

i learnt how to be aware of others.
how painful it is when others are not sensitive to you. that i should include everyone, and take the initiative to include someone whom i see being left out.
unity is not about holding hands, linking arms, hugging. unity is not merely physical, in fact physical unity is nothing; it's superficial. bondedness is so much more than that. it's the strong feelings of love you have for another, the willingness to help another and show compassion. it's the underlying and invisible connection that bonds people together.

im disappointed in you. because you seemed to have forgotten everything that happened, everything tt we've learnt. you don't realise how insensitive you've become now. even when i give subtle hints to let you know how you're pushing others away. maybe you choose to ignore them. now i know how much it hurts, and im glad i have others to turn to, others who see wad's happening and know how it feels. how do i learn to trust you again? i don't even dare to tell you how i feel now. tt's how much we've drifted. don't you feel anything? maybe not, because you're too immersed in the things that shouldnt matter.

i saw how there are very different facades to people.
some whom i've misunderstood and wrongly misjudged [i owe these people and apology], and others whom i thought so highly of at first and failed to see their weaknesses; only to feel disappointment in them.

i saw wanling and pet last night YAY! :D missed them BADLY ):

happiness is easy; contentment is not.
adjusting is easy; accepting is not.

现在有鞋子了，我们知道我们的问题在哪里吗？

`wordsofthecynical
3:28 pm

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