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Thursday, June 29
today i am ponderous...

sometimes i wonder if it's all worth it. sometimes i love it, sometimes i hate it. but am i willing to let my gpa slide because of it? no. admittedly my gpa isn't say VERY bad. but it will be if it slides further. sometimes i wonder if i made the right choice in my commitments. it's never easy balancing work and commitments, and something has to be sacrificed. am i willing to sacrifice my grades? no. tis the same feeling as elynn, sometimes u just wanna step back and let go. it's too bad then that i can't do that next year, and since i've chosen, i'm giving my all.

but my apathy starts in 2008?

sometimes i wonder when someone has made too many mistakes. it feels like so many that you feel that you can no longer live up to anyhting. it's harsh, and it seems like im in some way involved in every mistake. and for every mistake, it seems like i should be the one to have known better and exercise better judgement. the constant judgement of a person can take its toll.

now i know why it's so difficult to hold on to your youth. now i know why adults always seem so strict and stern and logical and clear-headed. with every passing year, the expectation of you to behave and act in a certain way becomes higher. no wonder adults lose their "fun loving" side and some of them never get it back. they're weighed down by expectations and they do nothing to lift that burden. it's sickening to some extent. i don't to be that. i'm 15, not fifty.

im sick, im tired. leave me alone.

`wordsofthecynical
11:39 pm


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